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all the cool kids are doing it.. [13 Aug 2004|10:43am] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | Matchbook Romanice - Promis ] Opening credits: Down - Blink 182 Waking up: Saints and Salors - Dashboard Confessional Average day: When I come around - Green Day First date: Lettes to you ( Acustic ) - Finch Falling in love: Long goodnight - The get up kids Love scene: Change - Deftones Fight scene: Lip gloss and let down - A Static Lullaby Breaking up: Masterpiece - Bayside Getting back together: Promis - Matchbook Romance Secret love: Ghost Man on third - Taking Back Sunday Life's okay: Catching on - Dynamit Boy Mental breakdown: Smashed into pieces - Silverstein Driving: Aint love grand - Atreyu Learning a lesson: Wake me - Don't look down Deep thought: Ohio is for lovers - Hawthorne Heights Flashback: Grand Theft Autumn - Fall out boy Partying: Party Hard - Andrew W. K. Happy dance: Cadilac - Mest Regreting: The only honest love song - Boys Night Out Long night alone: I miss you ( Acustic ) - Incubis Death scene: Heiligh Heiligh a lie Heiligh - Bright Eyes Closing credits: Anthem of our dying day - Story of the year Your Life: The Soundtrack brought to you by BZOINK! EmotionDump - 100% Anonymous Emotions and Confessions 3 comments|post comment

starving is the make up to the beautie of depression [04 Aug 2004|01:10pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Hawthorne Heights - Ohio is for lovers ] well shit is finaly starting to look up, me and jade are talking and i'm goin to hang out with her after band practice, which brings me to another thing thats working out. our new shit is sounding really good, we're gonna be having shows with bayside and hawthorne heights, then we're gonna play the sencond stage with glasseater at the webster, and we might be on the holloween show at the madison arts barn with these green eyes. The new CD is gonna be amazing, and we're doing a mini tour to press our CD in the north east in places like CT, RI, NY, and NJ. thats about it for now, i'm on my way out so till next time, sex me up... 2 comments|post comment

I've come to see my worst brings out the best in you [02 Aug 2004|09:52am] [ mood | restless ] [ music | Thursday - Signals over the air ] for the past week sleep for me has been staring at the roof of a room that isn't even mine, and thinking of everything that went wrong, you get this feeling like your gonna throw up, and you look around and it feels like the walls are closing in on you, after to many trys you think about why bothering to right the wrongs when its bound to happen again, my life is just one zig zag line going from everything seems to be working out, to everything just gets so fucked you have no idea what to do with yourself. I feel like the sky has fallen on me and i don't have enough strangth to get my self out, so I guess I'll just drownd. 1 comment|post comment

I'd rather sleep on train tracks, than have you speak to me [27 Jul 2004|06:11pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Don't Look Down - Wake me ] well jade left me a voice mail saying how much she loves and wants to talk to me, but yet befor shes all hardcore mad at me and saying i have to stop feeling sorry for my self, i really don't get half the shit thats going on with me and her. Playing it off with the i can't have friends of the other sex thing doesn't work beacuse she did the same thing to me with sara, so she can't even play that game with me, what ever i'm not gonna let it bother me, it's fucking summer, i need to go out and have some fun and get my mind off the millions of other shit thats happening. I think sara and hannah wanna hang out with me and baker tonight, we'll probley go to saras house and have a movie night with a fire, sounds fun, until next time, let the romance bleed away.. 4 comments|post comment

this is what living like this does [26 Jul 2004|11:10am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | Mest - Lost, Broken, Confused ] well im raging fucking pissed, nothing is working out anymore at all. I'm not even gonna get into the jade shit in this beacuse i know i'll have mad coments about it and i can't say names that told me shit, but thats not cool at all, plus i got a letter in the mail saying that i didn't pass enough classes so i have to be a fucking freshmen again next year. So now i have to be a freshmen again, my mom isn't talking to me, my girlfriend confessed her love for someone else, nothing at fucking all is working. Plus theres been a fight every night with that bitch nate rawlings. I donno what i'm gonna do with all this shit, but somethings gotta give.. 1 comment|post comment

I've got a bad feeling about this [23 Jul 2004|12:47pm] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | Taking back sunday - A decade under the influence ] well lastnight was some shit at the westbrook carnivale, jacky got arrested, jay punched a cop and had to leave, nicky went home in the ambulence beacuse she started hyperfentalating, and i got into a pussy push fight with nate rawlings. Then i had to deal shit with jade beacuse i guess some one told her i was takling shit about her, when at the same time some one told me shit was talking shit about me, weird.. whatever i'm off with matt sara and jade for the beach or something, then i'm back at the carnivale, stay up... post comment

Take this broken heart and make it right [19 Jul 2004|10:14am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Don't look down - Wake me ] well it's monday, i just woke up, thought i should type in this thing again? My dads was fun, we watched the Big Labousky and got domino's, allways a fun mix. Sunday night i came home and me and baker went downtown and hung out with ty, kyle, dipmen, and some other kids. After that we had to go meet bake at the carnivale beacuse he gots us jobs there befor it opens so we get free rides and free food, and we get paid, pritty gnarly. Then we met up with nicky beans and skated around town till it was too rainy. Ran into morgans boyfriend with leo and christina in westbrook, said hello, talked about bands, nothing seemed too weird, but anyway, i don't feel good, too many mixed emotions, later.. 2 comments|post comment

Subject: (optional) Subject: (optional) Subject: (optional) Subject: (optional) Subject: (optional) [16 Jul 2004|06:43pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | Dynamite Boy - Catching on ] well today i got my hair cut for bake and it didn't end up that bad, i do miss my sexy cross over emo cut, but now i went with the metro hawk so i have the story of the year hair cut going down. After that went downtown westbrook to meet up with jessie, mark, and nick, watched the mest dvd and got some food. Went to the feild and saw ty and randy, then maddy came, nick went home, ty left to find plans for the night, nick got into a fight with his mom and went home, randy skated off somewhere, and i had to come home beacuse i'm getting picked up to go to my dads tonight at7. Well untill next time, sex-me-up...cus I'm kevin bogart, who else is gonna save the world? 2 comments|post comment

I'm glad to see your taking this as hard as I am... [16 Jul 2004|09:47am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | Saosin - Translating the name ] Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever fucking works out, Nothing ever ever ever fucking works out. 3 comments|post comment

This is about a social as I get now [15 Jul 2004|12:55pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Glasseater - At your own risk ] well tonight fucking dashboard and i'm siked because I need something good to happen, party with chris or something, who knows. Well i allmost pee'd when I found out in order to live hear i have to cut off my beautiful sexy cute emo boy hair, i have no idea how i'm gonna get it cut, suggestions? Well i'm waiting for bake to come home from work to bring me over to jades cus we're going up with her. Long night of teenage heartthrob emo goodness, sex-me-up. post comment

Theres no place like home [14 Jul 2004|10:02am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | From First To Last - Secrets don't make friends ] well last night was fun, got into a fight with my mom, which lead into a fist fight,which lead to me movieing out. I guess the story was that I'm going to live with my father in norwich, but I woke up to my grandmother telling me that I could move in with her and ryan in westbrook which isn't that bad at all beacuse I could still see all my friends, be with jade, and have the band. i really don't know whats going on right now with where i'm living or what i'm doing, so if anyone out there cares, drop me e-mails at KatEricKev@aol.com 3 comments|post comment

Take this pen out of my heart and let the ink run threw my vains. [13 Jul 2004|04:50pm] [ mood | full ] [ music | Bright Eyes - Perfect Sonnet ] well yesterday was a fun day, evin, hannah and frenchy came over, we went out skating at becan and went to duncken dunuts. Then mom came home and we went to dennys and i gots some fatty food that tastes like pure sex. Then corey came and everyone left but me, him, and evin and we waited for ryan manix to come pick us up. We went back to manix's house to play some music, Then hit up the westbrook movies to see Ancherman. The whole night we were trying to hook up corey with these girls that looked like they were 13 but said they were 15, and finaly corey made out with the blonde one and got her number, it was hott shit. Ancherman was the funnyest fucking movie i've ever seen, I pee'd a lil. Came back to evins house and played dashboard, bright eyes, and TBS on gutiar and played some video games till we passed out, in da morning i came back here and make some fatty pasta because i'm a fat fuck. Not sure what i'm doing tonight, but hopfully it'll be a party, sex-me-up. 1 comment|post comment

Lets never do this again.. [10 Jul 2004|01:43pm] [ mood | artistic ] [ music | BoysNightOut - Just once ] I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing, all I know is i don't want to hurt anyone, i never ment to, I never ment for my self to get hurt but i guess some people don't care about that. Well anyway on a lighter note lastnight me matt jade frenchy and hannah slept in a fucking tent out side my house and hannah allmost shit her pants beacuse there was big ass coyotes out side my house trying to kill us, it was funny shit. and of course I was Jason biggs acording to jade. Funny shit, now i'm about to go off to band practice, madison's on his way to pick me up, so stand back and watch the sex happen... 2 comments|post comment

Butterfly kisses and papercuts, batterd wrists and broken loves. [07 Jul 2004|10:57pm] [ mood | curious ] [ music | Dead Poetic - New Medicens ] well I fell like I'm gonna throw up, I've been writing lyrics and finishing this new song ever sence I got home from the movies tonight with luke, mike, morgan, and stina. During the movies morgan randomly started crying and wouldn't tell me whats wrong. Things like this don't really make me feel to stable, but also hint to past suspicions could be owning up. I thought thought how much I could hate a name with out knowing it. Now I'm in the cliffhanger moad when you know somethings wrong and you don't know why and you get that feeling in your stomic that things might be just too good to be working out on the inside, and just look pritty on the out side. As the song goes.. " I know she was beautiful, just not in the right way. " 2 comments|post comment

This is as about as social as I get now.. [07 Jul 2004|12:24am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Dashboard Confessionals - Hope your happy ] Dashboard mmmmmmmmmmmmmm I donno I've been creaming over dashboard so much latly, nothing like teen heartthrob acustic emo, it's how it's good. We'll my journal my be having some tecknical difficulties, so if so, we're sorry for any inconveinionce <--- sooo spelled that right ;-) 1 comment|post comment

=) [05 Jul 2004|09:54pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | blue and yellow by the used ] i`m bored and i don`t know why i`m doing this but i just wanted to say i love you and that i miss you alot from : your sorry excuse for a girlfriend xO post comment

You make me compleat, you make me compleatly misarable [05 Jul 2004|12:37pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Matt Ismale On Gutiar singing to andrew and fecnhy... oh ya! ] whats good, well on 4th of july, everything blew up, it was re-god-damn-diclous. We went to jades dad's beach with luke, matt, and frenchy, and Jade's dad bought these fucking fireworks from DA BIG BOYS and everytime we set one off it sounded/felt like tatersal shit the bed. Then after luke had to go home cus he got into a fight with his mom, whata ya gonna do. Then we came hur' and watched realsex to find the most fasinating underwater sex place witch scarred the shit out of me cus all these chicks can breath underwater, WHOA! Sunday, Matt, Frenchy, Jade, and Tatersal are hur' and we're listening to matts amazing song for frenchy, and watching some shitty movie about matchines taking over the world, it's getting weird up in hurr, kinda scarred, gonna go, SEX-ME-UP DAWG post comment

why does helo feel like goodbye [03 Jul 2004|11:50pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | AFI - Silver and Cold ] well today was jades birthday, I wanted to get her something, but i didn't wanna make any weird impressions to anyone, PLUS she didn't get me anything for my birthday beacuse she said she hated me then lol well, tonight at the barn started alright, then got worse and worse beacuse farewell to arms didn't even fucking show up which reallllllyyy pissed me off cus I love them, but after we all just started hanging out and brandan pulled his car up in the parking lot and blasted some music so we kinda threw a parking lot party for jade, and me and jeff started singing her some old fifty songs just beacuse thats how good we are, I did my best trying not to make it weird cus I'm sure a little part of her didn't want me there so I wanted to make the night fun, I mean common it's her birthday. Then nick and frenchy came back to my house, we left and went skating at becon travel and me and nick watched frenchy fall a whole lot, it's fun, you should try it. Well, I hope morgans having fun, she doesn't wanna see me anyway haha so I'll just sit here with nich and frenchy, listening to AFI.... good times? maybe.. could be better, but what are you gonna do, I fuck up everything lol post comment

I wanna see you i just... I don't know.... dont? [03 Jul 2004|12:07am] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | box car racer - there is ] I'm A dick.... well after that usually goes I'm a addicted to you, you know like the shitty simple plan song, but naw, just i'm a dick. Tonight at the fire works I walk back over to find my mom, jade, and jades mother discusing how I'm a dickhead. Really the number one thing you'd A. like to here your mother call you, B. have your girlfriend feed her reasons to call me a dickhead, and C. have your ex-girlfriends mother there just for the ride. It was a fun end of the night, let me tell you, to follow up with a fun conversation with jade about how I've changed and i'm a dick to everyone now, which really is true. Ever sence me and jade have really broken up, i have not been the same, I;m a dick to everyone, I'm always pissed off, and i allways feel like I'm gonna throw up. Not really looking for simpithy beacuse I did this to my self, but I don't know I was real happy when my mom was there for me when me and jade broke up and helpped me threw it, beacuse only an asshole would just fucking yell at me for what I did, beacuse obiously i don't know what i did, it's not like i was the one who fucking did it, naw, she was real awesome about it, but in the end, i'm the dick, it's fucking awesome, at least I have my girlfriend to talk to and cheer up, haha ohhh no sorry shes on vacation with her ex boyfriend camping, well that leaves me and this peice of shit drama causing journal. Guess I'll just play it out and see what happens, for the worst or the best, can't bitch about it, did it to my self, just wish some one was there to help me threw it. post comment

maybe I should hate you for this [01 Jul 2004|12:11am] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Bayside - Masterpeice ] when I move you move, whats good ladies and gentel men, just recovering from another sex-a-lishious night at kevins house. Morgan, Matt, Hannah, and lisa where here, then jade and sara showed up later. Me hannah and morgan went to dunken donuts and saw damion and hung out with him and watched him brake out some gnarly BMX a go go tricks, while at the same time sara and matt biked to jades house, WHO-RAA!! then we came back, hannah cut matts hair so it looks sexual michale graves style. But matt cut it short and left. Then me and morgan kicked the shit out of each other just to find out morgan wouldn't be mad it me and hannah had sex out of any of my friends, so we'll see how tonight turns out? then we all went and hung out at the parking lot and brawman showed up in a fucking razor scooter, it was amazing. Later on during the night, we all came back here. Morgan left, then we had a sing a long thing? mostly taking back sunday, bright eyes, and the early november. Now everyone left but hannah cus shes staying over cus she lives here, the workin woman. Well we're watchin talk sex so it's gettin a lil hott up here. Catch ya on da flip flop, sex me up! 3 comments|post comment

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